For the last five and half months I’ve been working hard to put myself into a better place than I was before.

Everything that happened, happened for a reason. No doubt about it. It was, necessary. In order for me to become the man I always knew I was. It. All. Had. To. Happen. Just as it did.

So, here I am, sitting in a room right next door to the old one I had in this very same house. I’ve got everything unpacked, and things I can’t unpack or don’t know what to do with yet are consolidated into bins together.

Obviously it’s a completely different room with a whole new set up than I had before but it feels like a completely different place.

What changed? What’s different?

I am.

My determination, my passion, my abilities are all now focused and fine tuned. Everything is a target but nothing is the main focus.

I used to think that I had to be so many things in order to prove myself.

Now I know, that I am everything and it proves my-self.

In my first ever attempt at telling a story, at trying to understand the depth of myself in the world around me I wrote this book: The Uncertain.

It’s odd, in a good way, that things I wrote and discussed were things I hadn’t fully been able to understand yet somehow knew in depth.

Maybe, I knew what I was doing on a galactic and universal subconscious level. That’s what it’s starting to feel like…and it’s kinda freaking me out (in a good way). Maybe I chose the title The Uncertain because I knew uncertainty was always going to be a huge part of living. What I thought was me trying to see what made sense with the themes within the book, was really me reminding myself of an eternal truth of life.

Life=Journey=Living=TheUncertain.

Once again, that uncertainty has lead me back to where I need to be.

I am, home again.

-Gustavo Lomas

 

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      1. Haha! It’s nice reading your entries, I don’t get to read it all or regularly but your posts are really nice. πŸ‘ I’m doing good by the way, just really busy at work though. But I’m doing great! How about you?

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      2. Well thank you. I had a more consistent schedule but like you I’ve been busy with work and martial arts, it’s good busy though πŸ™‚ Reading a lot and doing lots of physical, mental and spiritual development. And I love it.

        What line of work are you in?

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      3. Wow! Martial arts! I hope to read more but work is keeping me from doing so… But yeah, busy but good busy!😊 I work in the finance dept. of an engineering and construction company. You?

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      4. Wow. That’s fancy! πŸ™‚ Haha. I’m an automotive machinist. (Simply put, when you take your care to a mechanic or dealer we’re the place they outsource the fixing to). Family business, my uncle, cousin and myself.

        How long have you been doing finance? I just posted a blog (finally haha) with videos of my progress and a bit more of what martial arts is to me and such. “Expand the Self; Lose the Self.”

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      5. I’m sorry, I meant…fin-nancy…no, that was a terrible attempt at a joke haha. I…I apologize.

        I think it takes a very strong individual to handle finances for companies and corporations. Also, math is like my weak point so, yeah haha.

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      6. No need to apologize… πŸ™‚
        Many has the misconception you should be good in Math to be an accountant. Actually it doesn’t require much of complex math like calculus, really. It’s more of organizing and analyzing finances… πŸ™‚

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      7. Haha, okay. I just know that often times while I think I’m hilarious, others…not so much haha.

        This is true. I guess if the drive is there and you can organize yourself than it could be a pretty understandable and rewarding career. πŸ™‚ I’ve just always been better with my hands in terms of working; like taking things a part and figuring out how to put them back together or make them better then put them back together.

        DOn’t get me wrong though, if I could write full time as a career, I’d do it no problem πŸ™‚

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      8. Haha, that used to be me too.

        I mean, not that I haven’t tried. Just nobody is hiring someone like me. Who is purely creative in tradition aspects with new age renaissance ideas. I have plenty of stories and such that could be well made into a Netflix series or movie or two.

        Just haven’t had any luck I guess. But if you know someone, who might like my style and stuff well enough to pick up Gustavo, the producer of the ideas and such, feel free to let them know…PLEEAASEEEEE!!!!!! 😦 πŸ˜₯ hahahahahaha

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      9. Haha, well thank you. I’m not worried though. I enjoy coming up with new stories. And seeing how I can reach people in new ways. Made lots of progress since my first self published book The Uncertain.

        For now, I simply strive to improve on my self everyday. In all aspects that apply.

        When I wake up I’m gonna post a silly dance video haha. So, look forward to that.

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      10. It’s coming…in like five minutes haha.

        That’s excellent. For me I don’t care about being better or the “best”. I just want to be, human. A genuine, honest, respectful, caring, beautifully imperfect being πŸ™‚

        It’s really all about simplicity. When things start to get overwhelming most people tend to pile on more “stuff” in order to burry the overwhelm. When really it’s about shedding the excess and taking it all back to basic necessity, to find the most direct and long term solution.

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      11. I do care about being better. I know there can be a better version of me everyday. And I can be happier. And I believe I can do that even just by living with only the simplest of things. 😊

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