It all started with a posting on Facebook in 2010. A note I had to write, unaware of the truth in its inspiration. The note was titled, “Questions” It was the first step in writing my first book.

It was the first real step out of my cave.

 

At the time I only had three certainties constantly floating around in my mind: Questions, Insanity and Memories.

These, in turn, would become the first three chapters of my book.

 

All I was capable of was Questions. I questioned anything and everything, looking for answers externally that would help calm the internal turmoil I felt I was destined to live with forever.

Eventually after questioning everything and everyone constantly, I began to feel insane. As if I’d unknowingly driven myself to dive into Insanity…unable to get out.

That anxiousness forced me to sit and think. It forced me to remember everything that had brought me to where I was. I began to take responsibility for my actions and let go of the responsibility for the actions of others. I began to find my true self, the man who’d been hidden away within my Memories.

 

Unfortunately not all memories are good and since I’d already begun to confront my past so there was no going back. The Pain of later memories began to surface and I had to make a choice then and there to either face it or continue to run away and live in fear of my full potential.

I chose to confront it head on. That’s the moment that changed my life. Because once I was able to stand and face my demons, acknowledge my part in my pains, there was nothing left to hold me back. I was no longer fighting, myself for control. I was free.

 

Once I’d fully understood my pains, after fighting to ensure none of them would ever hold me back from who I knew I was meant to be ever again, I found myself falling in Love with life.

I felt the love I’d dreamt of swelling up deep inside me and for the first time in my life, I was able to express it without fear or hesitation.

I soon realized that I was becoming love. In my words, my actions and thoughts. It was further affirmation that I had been denying myself what I’d needed for so long.

Then I realized I was tired of making everything about me all the time. I wanted to do more, I wanted to help those I loved and care for. The right way.

 

I began to live in Understanding. Being able to see the world for all it was but even better, for all it could be. I began to notice a world of possibilities instead of a world full of pits of despair. I began to tap into my empathy and witness the changes in those around me.

I was understanding the difference between true friends and momentary ones. True love for someone and pushed ideas of what love “should” be.

 

That brought me into what I came to understand as Truth.

There is no definitive end to anything that is done or created. The journey is constant and then so should we be. Continuously growing, moving, expanding but most of all loving.

Continue to discover yourself in the world and the world within yourself.

Find internal peace and external troubles will no longer be able to break you.

 

It’s all a journey, in the matter of perspective. Simply allow yourself to be mesmerized in The Uncertain.

(If you’d like your own copy of The Uncertain, please order it from your local book store. It’s a print on demand book so no it’s not a waste of trees. You can also listen to the complete audio of the book on my podcast, New Age Renaissance. Thank you.)

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  1. To provide an unbiased perspective on The Uncertain would make me as the reader impartial to the author since I have a personal connection to him. As narrator and protagonist, Gustavo Lomas bares all: mind, body and soul exploring the individual as a whole from the metaphysical to the existential and challenges simple thought into a higher concept or conscious of being. The sense of self as a whole and ascending beyond as a single soul projected in the universe than that of the simple egocentricities of the individual in the reality of the here and now. Gustavo portrays the everyman, the more contemporary version of a Beckett play, performing both parts of Vladimir and Estragon as he waits for the arrival of Godot, but the personification of Godot here is the higher level of consciousness that transcends the spiritual more than the religious and viewing the world in a more psychological and analytic state of being. The Uncertain is a simplified concept of examining the meditative stream of perspective, interpretations, dreams and the like. It is truly a book of pondering and questioning life and the origins thereof whether in the recreation of Bacchanal imbibement or the pleasurable pursuits of consuming the green of Gaea; the epiphany that affects the reader is merely up to his or her own perspective that is ripe for interpretation. Mr. Lomas is a modern day Dianetical guru if one is call him that and I highly recommend his podcast New Age Renaissance to gain further inspiration.

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